My Denise,
I want to write so much about the wedding, but i want to leave it so I can personally tell you. They don’t believe, that I felt a strong energy once again. Knowing that I felt that I was channeling to myself for you to turn around. Why didn’t you turn around? I know that you felt that I was behind you. What I felt what their was an blockage between the aisle. My spirit was at your shoulders. As I felt that you wanted to turn around, but was so afraid and just couldn’t. Inside you had a threshold to break through, but you didn’t, because you were worried. Now, those are all sorts of experiences that I have faced over so many times, over and over again. God lead me to eat a hot dog instead and so I never witness the marriage at all. It was time to head back, from a far distance, I locked eyes on you and felt more of an energy that you were terrified inside and thought whatever they planned, actually succeeded. This energy was something that I never experience in the past directly from you since you never have done or will have nothing done wrong to me in the past, present or future. Later that evening, I knew that you were in so much pain because of the whole day. My heart and soul was reaching for you that night as I couldn’t tell you that it was going to be fine and alright. That’s when I text your Mom, to let her know what I could feel that you needed a channel to let you know it is alright from my end.
Denise, everything will be fine, I just never understood, why go to the most extreme limits for, since I love you and you love me so much. Why try and break us apart. What I wrote 12 years ago was so true about you being my heart and soul. I just don’t understand, how people are the way that they are. Why they are so cruel and have done so much damage. For most people, when they have experience something so vicious, over time, they tend to forget and adjust to the normal daily living. But for me, it rests within me as I will not adjust and think it is alright for what they have done to us. Those experiences are a part of you and me in which you will never be erased from the past.
Also, I almost forgot, I never wrote to the children last night. Well, let me tell you. They were the ones who wrote to me instead. Since, it was the flower girls at the wedding that made get up and stand directly behind you at the wedding. It was our children spiritual energy that went to the flower girls to channel to me and you. Will I continue to write to them? Sure, but let me tell you, a writer can only write when it feels right and a proper opportunity is present. I want more than just writing letters, I need the children and I need you directly which will happen soon.
I love you,
Ryan