SATURDAY

Hi Nolan, Ciara, & Dylan,

So, I hope you are all doing fantastic.  Today, is Saturday, exactly 1 week ago, I saw your mother and spoke with her.  I was going to write you earlier but the library had all there computers taken.  So, actually, I have a TV with the computer on the floor, so I could still write you.  I think a few hours ago, I was going to write a nice letter to thank you kids for everything you have done.  You are a big supporter for me and have made me where I am today.  Even you won’t realize it now, that you have made a tremendous impact in my life, I can’t ever thank you all so much.  Even though your mother, I have written so many letters, she gives me a lot of spiritual support , exactly you our children play a major role.  What you children give me, that I could never get from nowhere else, is that ultimate push and hope to get through when I am at the point where I can’t go further.  I’ll give you a few examples, for instance, when I am running or working out lifting something heavy, ready to give up, you give me that push and drive that I would have easily given up if it wasn’t for you.  I will give you an example for today.  By being in a new living surrounding, I am a little worried, and it is making me uncomfortable, but with your guidance and support, I will be able to make it through to where I will be able to do so.  What I don’t realize, is that I have spent so many hours and so much time with your mother, but when she is away, it is a very spiritual connection.  The opposite is with all of you, that it is a more of a physical connection, meaning it is the only times that I spent with you.  I have not spent a lot of time, that most Dads do with their children, so I have to think of the times that I had with all of you.  It makes it so much difficult, since Nolan and Ciara, where sometimes replaced throughout the years.  But the majority was Ciara being replaced.  For Dylan, I can’t picture a face to our child, but still plays an equal role in my development.

Take care,

Love Dad