Denise,
It’s almost 5 A.M., and it has been over 7 years since I have last seen your pretty face. I don’t necessary count the lost years with our children, because I know even one missing day is far enough to cope with, so I try and not keep count since it is very difficult. Everyday I have no idea or any certainty of how our children are functioning. I just have to assume that you are taking great care of them but I have no assurance of the real situation. I just hope and know that you will/ and have provided the best for them. Why is our family isolated and divided for? No family should ever feel like something is missing in their everyday life. God, yourself and I created our children so we could be parents who foster and nurture them not only to prepare them for adulthood, but for an understanding of who they actually are as a human being in life and what their meaning/purpose shall be. I could not shape or inform our children of the necessary tools in life or an opportunity to guide them in a direction to feel comfortable in any setting where they could recall that I have educated them to any matter that they find challenging in life. But that will come to an end shortly, as I have been speaking out and have been speaking out. As today with this letter, this will be the right step for our children to understand who their father is and will always continue to follow in any matter in life that grants them if they have an opportunity, if today or later in life this letter is read to them for my perspective of what I stand for.
Just one look into your mother’s eyes, I knew for certain that your mother was my soul mate and who I would spend the rest of our lives with. It was never a selection of knowing any credentials beforehand or having a tendency to advance my reasoning but with an absolute clean and transparent mind knowing it was absolutely her. There was no debating what her appearance could have been or should have been in my mind, if she should have dark or light hair, long or short hair, a certain eye colour or if she wore make-up or not. As humans, we might have a preference of these certain physical characteristics, but true love does not even consider what are expectations should be, but it is the person who you can see right in front of you. Who reciprocates yourself when you look at them. Now, when you get older, a lesson is our from our lives of how are democracy should truly function. If you are ever have a power to influence or demonstrate your opinion, please look at it from a equal mind set. Since, humans are sometimes programmed to just look at one direction and don’t look at it from all directions. Just use my example of your mother and I, true love encounter.
Now, let’s talk about today, October 5, 2018. Do I have a general idea of what is happening in the world today or in the last few years? I don’t have a picture of the real and true encounters but I just have to assume with my own beliefs, since I am being shielded from the outside. I could read the newspaper or turn on the TV but is that the real happenings or am I being misguided? I don’t take anything at 100% true value but I must distinguish on my own what is real and what is not. Which clarifies my own reality.
I know for certain what the accountants purposely and intentionally cause harm and unsafe conditions which they did indeed endangered my life during the year of 2006. I also know from real life what is to be a victim of a crime and how you actually feel and go about your everyday living conditions. Most people who don’t actually truly understand the impact of what is does to a person being a victim of a crime. In general, most of the public feel your concerns but they will eventually move ahead and go about their lives, while the victim lives with the pain for the rest of their lives. Not only does it affects the victim, but all the people around them of the missing elements that could have been with this pain in the way. Then, there are some people who have no true feelings who lead a way to pass judgment on the victim who disregard their concerns which is never acceptable in today’s society.
An impact? Can one voice or one vote make the true difference? What is the right thing to choose? 12 years ago, I stood and still stand by true fairness for what is the best of society, not the for the lies, loopholes, and the monetary gain that shapes our society in today’s age. I followed my direction in life, which was being a professional internal auditor who did the right thing as I held onto what is the honest value of what I always cherished and always wanted to fulfill in life. Some people believe their career is what defines a person as they will do anything to hold onto that reality. But at the end of the day, you are replaceable either by another person or in which I have truly witness is artificial intelligence. But you are never replaced by the memories of the people who love you and will continue in time to carry out your name. Some may call it a legacy, but we are all legacies. You don’t need to be a well known person in the world to make a change, for we are all equal and well known. Everyone can make a difference, in a peacefully and lovingly manner. Just take a moment and reflect on what you will choose in life, that will make an impact, it could be finding your soul mate, creating art, writing a letter, casting a vote, helping the person next to you, or just knowing what defines who you are. Never be influence by leaders who dictate what shall be the right action, but the only right action is your impact which makes a difference.
Denise, our love is an impact as we have made a difference. Let our children read this letter at a time when you know, they can make an impact. I love you, as I will be writing letters for many days and years ahead.
Love Ryan (Dad) XOXO